J.G.
I do not have a child with your son's condition. However, in your letter the words "I feel like it is my fault" jumped out at me. What purpose does it serve to blame anyone for what is?
Please do NOT place blame on yourself or anyone else. It does not help the situation in any way. All blame does is make you feel guilty. We are all our own worst judge. Instead, cherish each day you have, move forward. The past is history, the future a mystery, and this moment is a gift. That is why it is called the present. Please love yourself, lose the blame and guilt. Peace and love to you C.!