Seeking Moms with Learning Differences and Depression

I love my children so much! I want to be able to enjoy them as much as posible B-4 they grow up to have thier own families. But when both of them starts up the temper tantrums in minutes I start feeling over-loaded. I can't think clearly. I feel like I have to get away. I end up giving them what they want. So they can be happy and not notice mommy is not feeling ok. I wish I know why I feel so upet most of the day. I want my children to see a smart happy mommy they can be proud of. I know I can do many things, except being normal. How do you explain to your child "your mommy is wierd only because she's depressed with ADD and LD" I need all the advice possible.