J.W.
I have a 19 month old boy. My hubby and I are adopting him, and he is the light of our lives. I would stay home with him if I could, but I too have to work. I keep in mind that when my husband watches him, he is spending time with daddy, and that is important, same with my mother(grandma time). also, when he is at daycare, he is learning much needed social skills and preparing for the structure of school. She can't be by your side constantly, if you keep in mind the life skills you are providing, it may help you through. Good luck
jen