I'm so sorry you're going through this! I've been there twice, and it will get better, I promise! After crying through my first postpartum appointment, my OB gave me a pamphlet put out by an organization called, Depression After Delivery. There was a number you could call and request a list of therapists that dealt with PPD. Susan Benjamin Feingold, who was the president of the org at that time, also ran a support group out of Family Network in Highland Park. That was extremely helpful to talk to other moms going through the same thing! There weren't any therapists on the list in my immediate area then, and Susan couldn't accept any private patients at that time, but suggested Carol O'Connor, in Skokie, who is wonderful. She is on Golf Rd. She was worth the drive from Gurnee! I still see her to deal with other issues. Please feel free to contact me if you need to talk.