So - I've posted on here in the last month about some things happening at my job. Net net - I was put on an EIP out of nowhere (CEO referenced 2 weeks of poor work - I've been with the company for 5 years) and two weeks into my EIP my boss called and said they were going to post my position "just in case" it didn't work out (which they never did) well it's been almost 2 months now and everything seems to have settled down. When I talk to my boss about the EIP she says I "shouldn't worry and should just chill out" in regards to changing requirements/etc and references how we should keep up our weekly meetings "once the EIP is over".
The problem is I feel really betrayed and hurt by the whole thing - but I still like my actual job. So - in order to protect myself I've been applying to other positions. I was contacted yesterday by two different companies - both virtual, both for roles which I am very qualified - and I have an interview with one today and am waiting to schedule the interview with the other.
My problem - I feel super guilty! I know I shouldn't but I can't help it. In addition - the job I'm inteviewing for today is the EXACT SAME JOB I currently hold - I"m not sure how I feel about making a move to do the same work just at another company that is eerily similiar to the one I work at now.
I guess I need to hear that I don't owe my existing company any loyalty and that after what they did I SHOULD be looking for a new job - there is no guarantee they will keep me after my EIP ends (though I had a direct conversation with hte CEO and she said they want me to stay, to be successful, and take my role to the next level).
I'm totally torn - I never wanted to find another job and really planned to "sit" at my current role for at least a few more years until my youngest was in K (she just turned 3) - I plan to entertain the interviews and see what the companies have to say but can't help but think I'm making a mistake.
Thoughts?
You said it more eloquently than I could. Don't feel guilty. They won't/didn't feel guilty about abusing you.
I remember when you first posted about the problems at work. Even if everything does work out after the EIP ends, are your doubts and negative feelings about the experience going to end? I just wonder how healthy this environment is for you.
Go on the interviews, do the best job you can and see what happens. If you're offered a job, I would seriously consider it a fresh start! If not, keep thinking about what would really make you feel relaxed and safe in a job and keep looking for it.
When you're this insecure at work, it really drains your energy and makes is harder to enjoy life and your family.
I'm sorry to say but your employer is looking out for his bottom line. Not for you. It is VERY rare that an employer is truly looking out for your best interests as his number one. This is not your spouse. Or a family member. It is a job. Look out for you and your best interests.
Handle it decently and with high integrity.
There is NOTHING wrong with looking for another job.
Once you find one, should you choose to leave, give proper notice and don't ever burn bridges, you never know.
Good luck!!!
Oh and PS BE CAREFUL ABOUT YOUR JOB SEARCH. Don't do stuff on work time, or on work computers. EVER.
No guilt - You are selling your services, time and expertise. This is business. You dislike how company A is run. You're feeling guilty because you're a good person and work feels like "home". You might be guilty about leaving friends. You might feel guilty because you feel invested in Company A. Those aren't reasons to stay.
You work to bring home a paycheck and keep as much of your sanity as possible. You don't owe the company anything, and they don't owe you.
Betrayal feeling - It's your feeling and that's ok. Having read all of your discussions about this job, I would agree with you. They're a$$*****s.
But you give them 8+ hours per day, don't give them free rent in your head too!
Good luck on the interviews!
Don't feel guilty. If your current job is not a mtach anymore, it's better YOU decide then THEY decide.
I think you're doing the smart thing.
Yay, a new adventure! Sometimes that can really breathe the life back into you know?!
Good Luck today!
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Sounds like your job has been nuts the last few months. I don't blame you for looking for a new job, and there is some guilt that comes with it, I've been there (last month actually). Leah M. is right, your company is looking out for their own interests. It kind of seems like they're trying to cover all their bases just in case they let you go or you leave (which, no offense at all, but they might see that as a good thing). So, do the interviews! See what the other places have to offer. You never know, you might find something you really love in a place you feel more comfortable. On the other hand, it's also possible that you won't even be offered those jobs. But you'll never know until you try. :)
I think that you're doing the right thing by checking into other jobs. I know the company says they plan on keeping you, but in today's economy you never know. I worked at a place as the general manager and the company owners went on for 2 years saying how they weren't worried about anything all was well etc. to show up one day and tell us all not to come back the next day. It was so hard to find another job after that happened. My point is that you can never be too sure and while you might be content where you are, you're better off to move on from them then let them move on from you and you end up stuck. I don't know if you are married/have another income, but like i said in this economy who really wants to chance being unemployed. I have a perfect job history with no less than 3 years at any place i've ever worked and still can't find a job. So good luck with your search and just remember, don't turn down the new places just because you're nervous, if it's the same exact job, you'll do great!
I feel for you. Your loyalty is to your family and your dignity. You never work for someone else you only ever work for ME, INC. No matter where you are working the paycheck comes in your name and to you. Work isn't just a matter of the check, it is also the environment we spend most of our time in. You are fortunate to have interviews lined up. Get on with the business of moving on. There is no need to live in uncertainity when you are in charge of what you want to do with your life. No need to feel guilty. This is business and not personal. You need to work somewhere you know you are appreciated and wanted and no stressed out by nonsense. Take the valuable lessons with you. Do your best work no matter where you go because ultimately you work for ME, INC.
