S.B.
I'm not a doctor, but I think you need to address your anxiety problems.
I am a very anxious person. It really affects my health and runs me down because I don't sleep well, which makes me tired during the day. It's also caused numerous health problems by diminishing my immune system.
I would also advise some counseling to get to the bottom of your fears.
After a car accident, I was terrified to drive for the longest time. Literally scared to death. I had to deal with the fear of the incident itself, and not so much the fear of driving.
You need to get some help and deal with your fears one at a time.
Break it down into doable doses and work through your issues.
Trust me, you can do it. You will feel much better. You might even need a little medication to take the edge off so that you're not so overwhelmed by everything. There's nothing wrong with that.
You're a young woman. You shouldn't feel older than your time.
Be open with your doctor and see what they can do to help you.
I manage to function quite well without having anxiety attacks anymore.
It's worth it if you can rest and not be afraid of every single thing. It's not good to transfer that onto your child.
Make an appointment and speak frankly with your doctor.
Best wishes.