Hi M.! GOOD FOR YOU! That's the best decision you can make for your baby! But that's not the hard part. ;) For some women, Breast feeding is a breeze. They and their babies take to it with no problem. But most of us have some challenges along the way. did it hurt? Oh yeah. But that didn't last all that long. Here's my story (I'll try to keep it short).
When Bright was born, we knew we would have some problems because I had flat inverted nipples and very large breasts. And we didn't know it at the time, but we had a very stubborn baby! He wouldn't latch on right away nad because he had a little low blood sugar (I had gestational diabetes) we had to start finger feeding him with formula right away. But we kept trying. Sometimes he would latch, sometimes he wouldn't. So while in the hospital, we mostly formula fed until I could get home and start pumping. So I joined my Lactation Group at the hospital (BTW, I had WONDERFUL LC's beside me every step of the way in and out of the hospital) and pumped for the first 9 1/2 weeks of my son's life. Finally, after 9 1/2 weeks of pumping, he did it! And he is 19 months now and still nursing (though he's eating solids and drinking milk and all that other good stuff). NOW I have to figure out how I'm going to wean him because he is in no way ready to stop! :) And right now through the winter I am not going to get serious about it because we've already had rotavirus this year (though it wasn't as bad as last year).
So in a nutshell, it's not always easy. As a matter of fact, it's almost NEVER easy. And you will get stressed out, and you will get discouraged, but you will also make the best decision for you and your baby whether it be to continue to try to nurse or to start supplementing.
See if your local hospitals have a nursing support group or something that you can join at first. That helped me out immensely knowing that everyone has issues at first and the help they provided was priceless.
Speaking of the 19 MO, he's having a melt down as I type. Visit my new blog post at http://mybrightboy.blogspot.com and read the post "Boobies make me smile...A Thoughtful Post"