Hi D.,
Nursing challenges are so frustrating. We all go through them at some point. I'm so sorry that you have not received the support you want so far. I hope you get much support and good advice from this forum.
First, Fenugreek is very good for increasing milk supply. You need to speak with someone who is knowledgable with herbs. There is a place in Chandler called MOTHERS BABIES AND MORE (sorry can't remember location). The man (yes a man) who owns it can help with just about any breastfeeding issue. One of my freinds went to see him to increase her milk supply and she had to cut down the amount of herbal remedy he provided because it was so much! She SWEARS that he knows his stuff. I have met several other moms who have gone there and are very impressed by his help with nursing challenges.
I highly suggest seeking him out.
Second, pumping at work can be a challenge. Never enough time, privacy, or there is lack of support which can make it difficult to relax enough to pump. If you are experiencing challengs with pumping, in what ways can you improve how you pump at work? R U getting enough H2o and nourishing foods? Do you have a picture of your baby to look at while at work? What is your mood like when you pump? The release of oxytocin (the happy hormone) is vitally important to the let down of milk. If you are feeling stressed, it can affect your pumping and nursing.
Sit down and take a few moments to listen to your inner mama. You say you want to continue to nurse (yay for you! :)...and it does take a tremendous amount of dedication to nurse and pump while working outside of home, but how come you want to nurse? What is your belief about it? Do you breastfeed because you truly want to? Do you breastfeed because you will feel guilty about NOT doing it? I'm not trying to talk you out of continuing...I really hope you do because I know how beneficial and great it is. But feeling guilt isn't going to help you. It's important you feed your baby from a place of love. If that place needs to come from a bottle because you have surrendered to that with full awareness, then so be it. Again, I fully support breastfeeding for as long as mom and babe want to and know that most moms stop because of lack of support and not truly listening to thier inner wise mama. But, it is really important that you feel at peace with how you feed your baby.
Whenever you do need to bottle feed and there isn't enough of your own yummy milk, please please consider feeding our baby goats milk instead of formula. Do your research on this. Formula is being pushed onto unknowing parents as "good" when it's nothing but processed chemicals. Babies have survived and are fine with formula, yes...but if you do your homework, I'm sure you will find plenty of reason to feed your baby goats milk instead of formula. Just a suggestion. You need to make your own decision based on your own research.
Finally, I've copied an article written by a friend. She is a Birthing From Within Advisor and Breastfeeding Consultant in Cal. The article is beyond any words I could say to you. I invite you to copy and print it out for yourself and read it everyday until it becomes a part of how you feed your baby.
I wish you all the best.
In peace,
A.
mom of 4. married 15 yrs.
Birth and Parenting Mentor
www.birthingfromwithin.com
Breastfeeding From Within
By Virginia Bobro
Birthing From Within encourages and teaches "doing the next best thing" when it comes to making decisions within the flow of labor and birth. The same mind-set is important during postpartum and breastfeeding. In the days, weeks, months, and even years that a woman is breastfeeding, she will face numerous obstacles, detours, and unexpected events. How she prepares prenatally and how she views these challenges can make a difference in her ability to cope.
As a breastfeeding counselor, I support many breastfeeding mothers who have to change their perception of what a "successful" breastfeeding relationship is. Some mothers need to wean much earlier than they hoped. Others need to supplement with bottles or formula. These are opportunities to re-envision what it means to nurture and nourish their babies. Many mothers are humbled when the "breastfeeding fairy" presents them with difficult circumstances and spoils their fantasy that nursing is easy and blissful.
When breastfeeding does not go as expected or hoped for, a mother can feel regret, anger, blame, grief, and guilt. Inevitably, this negative self-talk begins to affect her self-esteem and attitude, her ability to receive support, and her relationships with her baby, partner, and others in her community.
So, what can be done?
In addition to learning practical things that make breastfeeding easier, do this:
♥ Learn and practice mindfulness.
The same pain-coping practices you learn to help you cope with labor can help you postpartum when you need to still your mind, quiet negative self-talk and deal with physical discomfort and stress. (See Birthing From Within, pp. 213-238).
♥ Get a breastfeeding "reality check."
Breastfeeding is natural, but not always straightforward and easy. Very few women sail through breastfeeding on calm seas from beginning to end. Even for the most vigilant captain, storms arise outside of her control, and still, she can do the next best thing. When women know that they can influence but not control what happens, they can see the wisdom of preparing for all possibilities.
♥ Set up your breastfeeding support system.
Having a supportive crew onboard in the first months of motherhood can make all the difference. Welcome meals, errands, and compassionate listeners. When breastfeeding gets rough, support is needed to keep going and not get mired in "what ifs" and judgment. You need to hear acknowledgment that you are doing your best, not more advice and information.
♥ Focus on connecting with your baby and yourself as a mother
Come to breastfeeding with an open heart. To the degree that you can, let go of your ideals and goals, such as breastfeeding exclusively for six months. Just hold the intention to do the best you can. When you love yourself and feed your baby in love, this is the heart of breastfeeding from within
EXERCISE: Feeding with Love
When sitting (or lying down) to feed your baby, try this:
Begin to notice all the sensations around you, beginning with your baby:
Look at her face, notice the touch of her skin, take in her smell and her sounds.
Then begin to bring your attention to your own body: Where does your body touch your baby's body? How is your breath moving in and out of your body?
Where do you feel relaxed and open?
Where does your body feel tight, tense, or closed?
Gently and mindfully breathe into those places, softening and releasing anything that is unneeded in this moment. This may take several minutes. Go slowly and do not expect perfection!
As your body lets go of anything extra, feel your heart opening.
Allow yourself to inhale the presence of your baby, loving her in this moment and loving yourself as well. With each new breath, feel into your baby's heart, visualizing a connection that endures beyond feeding time.
If feeding is difficult, your focus may return to the task of latching or monitoring the feed. Do what needs to be done, then, when you are ready, take another conscious breath and return to your opening heart.
Resources
Local La Leche League
Lactation Consultants
Other Supportive Breastfeeding Moms